{"id":198,"date":"2015-10-04T05:14:38","date_gmt":"2015-10-04T05:14:38","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.dabreez.net\/?p=198"},"modified":"2015-10-04T12:45:46","modified_gmt":"2015-10-04T12:45:46","slug":"a-little-bit-of-crazy","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.dabreez.net\/?p=198","title":{"rendered":"A Little Bit of Crazy"},"content":{"rendered":"

Two of Thirty<\/a><\/p>\n

\"mars_atmosphere\"<\/a>\u201cNeed to Science the shit out of this.\u201d -The Martian<\/p>\n

I\u2019m not going to get this right.
\nNot with the amount of time I have and the amount of science it\u2019s going to take. I\u2019ll fill in the pieces later, keep moving; fill in the colors later, draw lines now;
\nflow to that part of the brain that is tracking now.
\nYeah, that\u2019s what I\u2019ll do.<\/p>\n

Ever seen the dervishs? They whirl. The drummers drum. The church choirs sing, and the monks meditate. The charismatics speak in tongues. The pagans trance. I\u2019ve been many of these.
\nAnd I\u2019ve been an engineer and a scientist.
\nThere\u2019s a reason to take your mind along a path of Faerie, or along the story line. It\u2019s because our higher mind isn\u2019t made for shifting. We don\u2019t change our minds very easy. And that\u2019s a good thing.
\nI need to pour energy into getting through whatever task is in front of me. That takes being single minded. But ideas only go so far. Every piece of reason or driving logic we have that gets us through the day needs to be parked in order for the neurons to clean out, for the growth along other pathways to happen, to reveal more. Yeah, that\u2019s one thing.
\nTo learn more. To learn more than just the steps of the task before me, I need to be able to shift sideways.
\nTo let go, too, I need to be able to disengage from the task, the line of thinking. Whatever it is that challenges me in the day. That\u2019s the thing that\u2019s keeping my mind going. It\u2019s keeping me away from sleep. It\u2019s keeping my cortisol levels up. When I was younger, that cortisol, I\u2019m sure, was mixed with adrenaline.
\nI can say it was from PTSD. There, said. But, I want to say it from the standpoint of a symptom of a condition, only. And that condition is present in many, and to some degree or another. Saying that for a reason. Because the diagnosis isn\u2019t the story. It\u2019s not the end. It\u2019s not even that interesting. Let the size of it go.
\nThen I do drumming, singing, speaking in tongues, meditating, whatever as a way to shift sideways, step back, break through the hard crust of that bad medicine.
\nShit happens. You work through it, step sideways, take care of what\u2019s needed and move on. And the moving sideways is this ecstasy thing. Oh yeah, you can do it with some booze or some bud, but that just stops the firing of the pathways, it doesn\u2019t relax into new ways. And it does it, too often, at the cost of carbs (and all their side affects) or at the cost of other social ills (not what this is about). So yeah, you can R&R your way out of it.
\nBut it you\u2019re stuck, poor (like a college student), committed to the point of \u201cnot going anywhere\u201d or for any other reason not able to physically change the world or routing enough, then it\u2019s the ritualistic ways of ecstasy you need: meditation, dancing, drumming, and on to poetry and music. I\u2019d even throw some hypnotism or cognitive therapy into that mix, except I\u2019m not that smart.
\nOh yeah, I\u2019ve heard surfing too. I guess it depends on what you have.
\nIt helps me get away from my monkey mind, jumping around in my my fiery neocortex, or up out of my lizard brain, a slower rhythm of not enough thought. And I\u2019m sure it gets me away from the mouse mind too.
\nThe Christians have the three, Father, Son, Holy Spirit – or closer to home, body, soul, and spirit. The neopagans have the talking self, younger self and Deep or God Self. In evolution it\u2019s lizard brain, mouse, then monkey mind.
\nIt\u2019s more than likely something more than three. It ain\u2019t one. We, and life, are made up of so many parts, it\u2019s ridiculous. Whatever we have to do to just chill out and let that be, that\u2019s a good thing. It\u2019s a practice I want to have in my pocket.
\nIn my pocket, though. Contained. I won\u2019t over glorify anything. Prayer or meditation may just be mindfulness, trance may just be focus, and ecstasy? Well it\u2019s where you find it. But find it you must.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Two of Thirty \u201cNeed to Science the shit out of this.\u201d -The Martian I\u2019m not going to get this right. Not with the amount of time I have and the amount of science it\u2019s going to take. I\u2019ll fill in the pieces later, keep moving; fill in the colors later, draw lines now; flow to … Continue reading “A Little Bit of Crazy”<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","enabled":false}}},"categories":[3],"tags":[],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p3UYCu-3c","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dabreez.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/198"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dabreez.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dabreez.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dabreez.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dabreez.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=198"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"http:\/\/www.dabreez.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/198\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":201,"href":"http:\/\/www.dabreez.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/198\/revisions\/201"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.dabreez.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=198"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dabreez.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=198"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.dabreez.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=198"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}