{"id":203,"date":"2015-10-05T06:17:09","date_gmt":"2015-10-05T06:17:09","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.dabreez.net\/?p=203"},"modified":"2015-10-05T06:21:23","modified_gmt":"2015-10-05T06:21:23","slug":"the-harder-thing","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.dabreez.net\/?p=203","title":{"rendered":"The Harder Thing"},"content":{"rendered":"

Three of\u00a0Thirty<\/a>.<\/p>\n

Two months of feeling sorry for myself – enough<\/em>. \u00a0reset to ought.<\/p>\n

170 for the Hilly. This one is about goal setting and hard things as much as it\u2019s about moving through the world with arms wide open. The Chilly Hilly is a bike ride of 35 miles, all hilly, in February. Need to have a loose light body that\u2019s resilient and strong.<\/p>\n

21 weeks from now. 32 lbs and 10 lbs of muscle gained.
\n21 weeks. Add 25 miles. With hills.
\n21 weeks. Max out the facial softness and the healthy metabolism.<\/p>\n

Max out the cold training.<\/p>\n

What am I talking about?<\/p>\n

Hot Yoga.
\nSwimming.
\nBiking and Hi Intensity training.<\/p>\n

Do the hard thing. Do the Chilly Hilly. Possibly fail? Yeah. But learn from it all. Learn from the effort. A long time ago, my Aikido Instructor said something like \u201cIt\u2019s all training.\u201d He said it in an inclusive way, like all life is training. I rejected that. Still do.
\nLife is for living.
\nBut now, I\u2019d say what he said, with some nuance. Yeah, it\u2019s all training – in hindsight. Laughing and loving while your going through it, that\u2019s living. That\u2019s staying soft. That\u2019s how you break through hard walls. Learn from the path, but enjoy the path.<\/p>\n

Be soft. Be present.<\/p>\n

All that to break through. Break through the myths. And the myths of hardness are as much about that being false, as about the idea of being all that. The idea that you\u2019re going down a wrong road is a myth. Being a guy and doing hard things is fucked up they\u2019ll say. But that\u2019s wrong too.<\/p>\n

You could say that the false male myth is one of hardness, one of goal only. You could say.<\/p>\n

Instead what it needs to be about is progressive iterative and cyclic moves towards a goal. But the goal is softness. The goal is open arms, strength resiliency and love.<\/p>\n

Staying content with the cycle itself in order to maintain balance, maintain health, sometimes just maintain.<\/p>\n

At some level I want to say it\u2019s about not caring. That\u2019s not quite it. It\u2019s about staying relaxed while going through the work. It\u2019s about that being the achievement. And in staying relaxed, to keep caring and feeling.<\/p>\n

My Nutritionist said most of what I\u2019ve gained was inflamation. Some fat, yeah I know.<\/p>\n

Right now: 201 lbs, glucose 131. Tomorrow the numbers start.<\/p>\n

Tomorrow, you suck. I know. Let it go.<\/p>\n

I feel fine. Just not good. So, time to go. Time to get to good.<\/p>\n

Right now, my biking is at 11 miles (last week did 16). Cycle that up to the Chilly 35. \u00a0Slowly.<\/p>\n

And if I\u2019m going to really be writing. If this is supposed to mean anything, then I have to say: diet-wise, switch to fat, cut the carbs, stay loose, move gently but move.<\/p>\n

That\u2019s what breaking through walls is. Staying soft. Staying. Sticking. Sticking with it. Never giving up.<\/p>\n

Never giving up on yourself.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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